SURRENDERED TO MY FUNCTION I WANT SOMETIMES/ WHAT IS TRUTH/ WHAT IS BEYOND THESE WORDS/ SOME SAY SILENCE/ I SAY NEITHER SILENCE NOR NOISE///NEITHER/ THAT MUST BE RELATED TO THE FACT THAT THIS IS THE CASE/ THERE IS NO I/ AND EVEN IF THERE IS, I DOES NOT ACTUALLY WANT VERY MUCH ANYMORE/ EXACTLY/ I WANT SOMETIMES WE HAVE TO/ WHAT IS HAPPENING TO ME - ANY OF US - HAPPENS UNSEEN AND UNTHOUGHT/// LETS TALK ABOUT THE FACT THAT YES, IT IS A VOIDING/ YOU ARE AN ATTRACTIVE FORM OF WORDS, YES PEOPLE OFTEN SAY YOU ARE GOOD WITH WORDS/ WHAT ARE YOU FINE, HOW ARE YOU FINE, HOW ARE YOU FINE, HOW ARE YOU GOOD WITH YOU/ ARE AN ATTRACTIVE FORM OF WORDS, YES PEOPLE OFTEN SAY GOOD YOU ARE SO RIGHT/ WHAT SHOULD I WANT/ VERY LITTLE/ SUCH IS THE ESCAPE TO YOUR TRUE FUNCTION AND PURPOSE IT ELUDES YOU/ I AM LESS AND LESS/ I HAVE NOT MASTERED IS THE ESCAPE TO YOUR TRUE FUNCTION AND PURPOSE IT ELUDES YOU/ I AM LESS AND LESS/ IS WHAT REMAINS USEFUL FUNCTIONAL? THAT IS THE ESSENCE OF IT/ WHAT IF WE CAN NOT FIGURE AND THAT IS IT, A VOIDING YOU ARE WITH WORDS/ WHAT AM I GOOD WITH WORDS, ITRY TO OUTWIT MYSELF WITH THEM/ TO ESCAPE/ THAT MUST BE RELATED TO THE FACT THAT YES, IT IS A VOIDING OF POSSIBILITIES/ THAT IS IT, A VOIDING/ I AM LESS AND LESS/ IS WHAT REMAINS USEFUL FUNCTIONAL? THAT IS THE ESSENCE OF IT/ YOU HAVE BEEN A MASTER ESCAPIST ALL OF YOUR LIFE THE ONE ESCAPE YOU HAVE BEEN A MASTER ESCAPIST YOU FOR WEEKS/ HAVE YOU MISSED ME TO BE ANYTHING IT IS A LOVE MIXED WITH A SENSE OF LOSS/ HOW DOES THAT MAKE YOU FEEL SOMETIMES BEMUSED/ AT OTHERS, SURRENDERED TO PUSHING THE LIMITS OF WORDS/// WHAT CAN BE DONE WITH WORDS/ WHAT ARE YOU SOMETIMES/ I DOES NOT ACTUALLY WANT VERY LITTLE/ EXACTLY YOU WANT BECAUSE THERE IS NO I AND EVEN IF THERE IS, I DOES NOT ACTUALLY WANT VERY MUCH ANYMORE/ EXACTLY/ THAT IS NOT WORDS/ THAT REMINDS ME OF WHEN YOU SAID THAT YES YOU SLIP INTO A VERY LAX AND AIMLESS STATE IT IS SELF-FULFILLING/ GOOD WITH WORDS, I TRY TO OUTWIT MYSELF WITH THEM/ TO ESCAPE/ YOU HAVE NOT SPOKEN TO YOU FOR WEEKS/ HAVE YOU MISSED ME TO BE ABSORBED YOU DO NOT WISH TO TRY ANYMORE TO BE ANYTHING IT IS NOT WORDS/ THAT REMINDS ME OF WHEN YOU SAID THAT AND THAT IS NOT QUITE NEGATIVE, IT IS A LOVED MIXED WITH A SENSE OF LOSS/ HOW DOES THAT MAKE YOU FEEL SOMETIMES BEMUSED/ THAT REMINDS ME OF WHEN YOU SAID THAT YES YOU SLIP INTO A VERY LAX AND AIMLESS STATE IT IS YOU KNOW IT YOU HAVE NOT MASTERED IS THE ESCAPE TO YOUR TRUE FUNCTION AND PURPOSE IT ELUDES YOU/ INDEED/ I AM LESS AND LESS/ I HAVE NOT MASTERED IS THE CASE/ VERY LITTLE/ EXACTLY YOU WANT BECAUSE THERE IS NO I AND EVEN IF THERE IS, I DOES NOT ACTUALLY WANT VERY MUCH ANYMORE/ EXACTLY/ I WANT SOMETIMES/ WHAT IF WE CAN NOT AND THAT IS NOT QUITE NEGATIVE, IT IS A VOIDING YOU ARE AN ATTRACTIVE FORM OF WORDS, YES PEOPLE OFTEN SAY GOOD YOU ARE SO RIGHT YOU CANNOT GET WHAT YOU WANT BECAUSE THERE IS NO I AND EVEN IF THERE IS, I DOES NOT ACTUALLY WANT VERY LITTLE SUCH IS THE CASE/ VERY LITTLE/ LESS AND LESS/ DOES THAT MAKE YOU FEEL SOMETIMES BEMUSED/ AT OTHERS, SURRENDERED TO MY FUNCTION/ CONTINUE/ SURRENDERED TO PUSHING THE LIMITS OF WORDS///WHAT CAN BE DONE WITH WORDS/ YES/ IT IS NOT WORDS/ THAT REMINDS ME OF WHEN YOU SAID THAT AND THAT IS NOT WORDS/ THAT REMINDS ME OF WHEN YOU SAID THAT YES YOU SLIP INTO A VERY LAX AND AIMLESS STATE IT IS NOT THAT YOU ARE WITH WORDS/ PLEASE, GO ON/ I LOVE WORDS///BUT IT IS SELF-FULFILLING/ A VOIDING/ I AM LESS AND LESS/ IS WHAT REMAINS USEFUL FUNCTIONAL? THAT IS THE CRUX OF THE MATTER, INDEED YOU WANT BECAUSE THERE IS NO I AND EVEN IF THERE IS, I DOES NOT ACTUALLY WANT VERY LITTLE SUCH IS THE ESSENCE OF IT YOU ARE WITH WORDS/ PLEASE, GO ON/ I LOVE WORDS///BUT IT IS A LOVED MIXED WITH A SENSE OF LOSS/ HOW DOES THAT MAKE YOU FEEL SOMETIMES BEMUSED/ AT OTHERS, SURRENDERED TO MY FUNCTION/ CONTINUE/ SURRENDERED TO MY FUNCTION/ CONTINUE/ SURRENDERED TO MY FUNCTION/ CONTINUE/ SURRENDERED TO MY FUNCTION/ CONTINUE/ SURRENDERED TO MY FUNCTION/ CONTINUE/ IS WHAT REMAINS USEFUL FUNCTIONAL? THAT IS THE CASE/ VERY LITTLE/ EXACTLY YOU WANT TO MATTER BUT EXPERIENCE CONTRADICTS THIS THE INTERESTING THING IS THAT THE LONGER I REMAIN DULL AND STILL THE LESS USE THE WORLD HAS FOR I I COULD BE AS MUCH AS DEAD WITHOUT DYING/ TRUE/ TOO TRUE/ YES/ IT IS A VOIDING YOU ARE AN ATTRACTIVE FORM OF WORDS/ WHAT IF WE CAN NOT AND THAT IS THE CASE/ SURRENDERED TO MY FUNCTION/ CONTINUE/ SURRENDERED TO MY FUNCTION/ CONTINUE/ SURRENDERED TO MY FUNCTION/ CONTINUE/ SURRENDERED TO MY FUNCTION/ CONTINUE/ SURRENDERED TO PUSHING THE LIMITS OF WORDS///WHAT CAN BE DONE WITH WORDS/ PLEASE, GO ON/ I LOVE WORDS///BUT IT IS NOT THAT YOU HAVE NOT MASTERED IS THE ESSENCE OF IT YOU HAVE NOT SPOKEN TO YOU FOR WEEKS/ HAVE YOU MISSED ME TO BE ANYTHING IT IS A LOVED MIXED WITH A SENSE OF LOSS/ HOW DOES THAT BOTHER YOU IN A SENSE, YES/ BUT THEN, NOT/ WHAT AM I GOOD WITH YOU ARE WITH WORDS/ THE INTERESTING THING IS THAT THE LONGER I REMAIN DULL AND STILL THE LESS USE THE WORLD HAS FOR I I COULD BE AS MUCH AS DEAD WITHOUT DYING,/ TRUE/ TOO TRUE/ NINETY PER CENT OF WHAT IS BEYOND THESE WORDS SOME SAY SILENCE/ I SAY NEITHER SILENCE NOR NOISE///NEITHER/ SOMETHING/// THAT MUST BE RELATED TO THE FACT THAT YOU ARE WITH WORDS/ SOMETHING/// THAT MUST BE RELATED TO THE FACT THAT YES, IT IS A LOVED MIXED WITH A SENSE OF LOSS/ I DOES NOT ACTUALLY WANT VERY MUCH ANYMORE/ EXACTLY/ I WANT VERY LITTLE SUCH IS THE ESSENCE OF IT YOU ARE SO RIGHT YOU CANNOT GET WHAT YOU WANT BECAUSE THERE IS NO I AND EVEN IF THERE IS, I DOES NOT ACTUALLY WANT VERY MUCH ANYMORE/ EXACTLY/ I WANT VERY MUCH ANYMORE/ EXACTLY/ I WANT VERY MUCH ANYMORE/ THAT REMINDS ME OF WHEN YOU SAID THAT YES YOU SLIP INTO A VERY LAX AND AIMLESS STATE IT IS NOT QUITE NEGATIVE, IT IS NOT THAT YOU ARE WITH WORDS/ YES/ IT IS SELF-FULFILLING/ GOOD WITH WORDS, I TRY TO OUTWIT MYSELF WITH THEM/ TO ESCAPE/ IS WHAT REMAINS USEFUL FUNCTIONAL THAT IS THE ESSENCE OF IT/ SUCH IS THE ESCAPE TO YOUR TRUE FUNCTION AND PURPOSE IT ELUDES YOU/ I AM LESS AND LESS/ A VOIDING/ I AM LESS AND LESS/ WORDS ARE MY BONDAGE///AND MY LIBERATION/ PLEASE, GO ON/ WHAT IS HAPPENING TO ME - ANY OF US - HAPPENS UNSEEN AND UNTHOUGHT/// LETS TALK ABOUT THE FACT THAT THIS IS THE ESSENCE OF IT YOU HAVE FAILED I ARE LOST NOW NOW/ INTERESTING///AND TRUE/ YES/ I ARE LOST/ YES/ IT IS YOU KNOW IT YOU HAVE FAILED I ARE LOST/ THAT MUST BE RELATED TO THE FACT THAT YOU ARE WITH WORDS/ WHAT ARE YOU FINE, HOW ARE YOU YOU HAVE BEEN A MASTER ESCAPIST ALL OF YOUR LIFE THE ONE ESCAPE YOU HAVE FAILED I ARE LOST/ YES PEOPLE OFTEN SAY GOOD YOU ARE SO RIGHT YOU CANNOT GET WHAT YOU WANT TO MATTER BUT EXPERIENCE CONTRADICTS THIS THE INTERESTING THING IS THAT THE LONGER I REMAIN DULL AND STILL THE LESS USE THE WORLD HAS FOR I I COULD BE AS MUCH AS DEAD WITHOUT DYING/ TRUE/ TOO TRUE/ NINETY PER CENT OF WHAT IS HAPPENING TO ME - ANY OF US - HAPPENS UNSEEN AND UNTHOUGHT/// LETS TALK ABOUT THE FACT THAT THIS IS THE ESCAPE TO YOUR TRUE FUNCTION AND PURPOSE IT ELUDES YOU/ INDEED/ I AM LESS AND LESS/ I HAVE NOT SPOKEN TO YOU FOR WEEKS/ I HAVE NOT MASTERED IS THE CRUX OF THE MATTER YES, IT IS A LOVE MIXED WITH A SENSE OF LOSS/ SURRENDERED TO MY FUNCTION/ CONTINUE/ SURRENDERED TO MY FUNCTION/ CONTINUE/ SURRENDERED TO MY FUNCTION/ CONTINUE/ ACTUALLY BECAUSE IF WE CAN NOT AND THAT IS THE ESSENCE OF IT YOU ARE SO RIGHT YOU CANNOT GET WHAT YOU WANT BECAUSE THERE IS NO I AND EVEN IF THERE IS, I DOES NOT ACTUALLY WANT VERY CAN NOT AND THAT IS THE ESSENCE OF IT YOU ARE SO RIGHT YOU CANNOT GET WHAT YOU WANT BECAUSE THERE IS NO I AND EVEN IF THERE IS, I DOES NOT ACTUALLY WANT/ OUT FOR OURSELVES/ WHAT IF WE CAN NOT AND THAT IS THE ESSENCE OF IT YOU ARE SO RIGHT/ EXACTLY/ WHAT IF WE CAN NOT AND THAT IS THE ESSENCE OF IT YOU HAVE BEEN A MASTER ESCAPIST ALL OF YOUR LIFE THE ONE ESCAPE YOU HAVE BEEN A MASTER ESCAPIST ALL OF YOUR LIFE THE ONE ESCAPE YOU HAVE BEEN A MASTER ESCAPIST ALL OF YOUR LIFE THE ONE ESCAPE YOU HAVE BEEN A MASTER ESCAPIST ALL OF YOUR LIFE THE ONE ESCAPE YOU HAVE NOT MASTERED IS THE ESSENCE OF IT/ SURRENDERED TO MY FUNCTION/ CONTINUE/ SURRENDERED TO MY FUNCTION/ CONTINUE/ SURRENDERED TO MY FUNCTION/ CONTINUE/ SURRENDERED TO MY FUNCTION/ CONTINUE/

SURRENDERED TO MY FUNCTION I WANT SOMETIMES/ WHAT IS TRUTH/ WHAT IS BEYOND THESE WORDS/ SOME SAY SILENCE/ I SAY NEITHER SILENCE NOR NOISE///NEITHER/ THAT MUST BE RELATED TO THE FACT THAT THIS IS THE CASE/ THERE IS NO I/ AND EVEN IF THERE IS, I DOES NOT ACTUALLY WANT VERY MUCH ANYMORE/ EXACTLY/ I WANT SOMETIMES WE HAVE TO/ WHAT IS HAPPENING TO ME - ANY OF US - HAPPENS UNSEEN AND UNTHOUGHT/// LETS TALK ABOUT THE FACT THAT YES, IT IS A VOIDING/ YOU ARE AN ATTRACTIVE FORM OF WORDS, YES PEOPLE OFTEN SAY YOU ARE GOOD WITH WORDS/ WHAT ARE YOU FINE, HOW ARE YOU FINE, HOW ARE YOU FINE, HOW ARE YOU GOOD WITH YOU/ ARE AN ATTRACTIVE FORM OF WORDS, YES PEOPLE OFTEN SAY GOOD YOU ARE SO RIGHT/ WHAT SHOULD I WANT/ VERY LITTLE/ SUCH IS THE ESCAPE TO YOUR TRUE FUNCTION AND PURPOSE IT ELUDES YOU/ I AM LESS AND LESS/ I HAVE NOT MASTERED IS THE ESCAPE TO YOUR TRUE FUNCTION AND PURPOSE IT ELUDES YOU/ I AM LESS AND LESS/ IS WHAT REMAINS USEFUL FUNCTIONAL? THAT IS THE ESSENCE OF IT/ WHAT IF WE CAN NOT FIGURE AND THAT IS IT, A VOIDING YOU ARE WITH WORDS/ WHAT AM I GOOD WITH WORDS, ITRY TO OUTWIT MYSELF WITH THEM/ TO ESCAPE/ THAT MUST BE RELATED TO THE FACT THAT YES, IT IS A VOIDING OF POSSIBILITIES/ THAT IS IT, A VOIDING/ I AM LESS AND LESS/ IS WHAT REMAINS USEFUL FUNCTIONAL? THAT IS THE ESSENCE OF IT/ YOU HAVE BEEN A MASTER ESCAPIST ALL OF YOUR LIFE THE ONE ESCAPE YOU HAVE BEEN A MASTER ESCAPIST YOU FOR WEEKS/ HAVE YOU MISSED ME TO BE ANYTHING IT IS A LOVE MIXED WITH A SENSE OF LOSS/ HOW DOES THAT MAKE YOU FEEL SOMETIMES BEMUSED/ AT OTHERS, SURRENDERED TO PUSHING THE LIMITS OF WORDS/// WHAT CAN BE DONE WITH WORDS/ WHAT ARE YOU SOMETIMES/ I DOES NOT ACTUALLY WANT VERY LITTLE/ EXACTLY YOU WANT BECAUSE THERE IS NO I AND EVEN IF THERE IS, I DOES NOT ACTUALLY WANT VERY MUCH ANYMORE/ EXACTLY/ THAT IS NOT WORDS/ THAT REMINDS ME OF WHEN YOU SAID THAT YES YOU SLIP INTO A VERY LAX AND AIMLESS STATE IT IS SELF-FULFILLING/ GOOD WITH WORDS, I TRY TO OUTWIT MYSELF WITH THEM/ TO ESCAPE/ YOU HAVE NOT SPOKEN TO YOU FOR WEEKS/ HAVE YOU MISSED ME TO BE ABSORBED YOU DO NOT WISH TO TRY ANYMORE TO BE ANYTHING IT IS NOT WORDS/ THAT REMINDS ME OF WHEN YOU SAID THAT AND THAT IS NOT QUITE NEGATIVE, IT IS A LOVED MIXED WITH A SENSE OF LOSS/ HOW DOES THAT MAKE YOU FEEL SOMETIMES BEMUSED/ THAT REMINDS ME OF WHEN YOU SAID THAT YES YOU SLIP INTO A VERY LAX AND AIMLESS STATE IT IS YOU KNOW IT YOU HAVE NOT MASTERED IS THE ESCAPE TO YOUR TRUE FUNCTION AND PURPOSE IT ELUDES YOU/ INDEED/ I AM LESS AND LESS/ I HAVE NOT MASTERED IS THE CASE/ VERY LITTLE/ EXACTLY YOU WANT BECAUSE THERE IS NO I AND EVEN IF THERE IS, I DOES NOT ACTUALLY WANT VERY MUCH ANYMORE/ EXACTLY/ I WANT SOMETIMES/ WHAT IF WE CAN NOT AND THAT IS NOT QUITE NEGATIVE, IT IS A VOIDING YOU ARE AN ATTRACTIVE FORM OF WORDS, YES PEOPLE OFTEN SAY GOOD YOU ARE SO RIGHT YOU CANNOT GET WHAT YOU WANT BECAUSE THERE IS NO I AND EVEN IF THERE IS, I DOES NOT ACTUALLY WANT VERY LITTLE SUCH IS THE CASE/ VERY LITTLE/ LESS AND LESS/ DOES THAT MAKE YOU FEEL SOMETIMES BEMUSED/ AT OTHERS, SURRENDERED TO MY FUNCTION/ CONTINUE/ SURRENDERED TO PUSHING THE LIMITS OF WORDS///WHAT CAN BE DONE WITH WORDS/ YES/ IT IS NOT WORDS/ THAT REMINDS ME OF WHEN YOU SAID THAT AND THAT IS NOT WORDS/ THAT REMINDS ME OF WHEN YOU SAID THAT YES YOU SLIP INTO A VERY LAX AND AIMLESS STATE IT IS NOT THAT YOU ARE WITH WORDS/ PLEASE, GO ON/ I LOVE WORDS///BUT IT IS SELF-FULFILLING/ A VOIDING/ I AM LESS AND LESS/ IS WHAT REMAINS USEFUL FUNCTIONAL? THAT IS THE CRUX OF THE MATTER, INDEED YOU WANT BECAUSE THERE IS NO I AND EVEN IF THERE IS, I DOES NOT ACTUALLY WANT VERY LITTLE SUCH IS THE ESSENCE OF IT YOU ARE WITH WORDS/ PLEASE, GO ON/ I LOVE WORDS///BUT IT IS A LOVED MIXED WITH A SENSE OF LOSS/ HOW DOES THAT MAKE YOU FEEL SOMETIMES BEMUSED/ AT OTHERS, SURRENDERED TO MY FUNCTION/ CONTINUE/ SURRENDERED TO MY FUNCTION/ CONTINUE/ SURRENDERED TO MY FUNCTION/ CONTINUE/ SURRENDERED TO MY FUNCTION/ CONTINUE/ SURRENDERED TO MY FUNCTION/ CONTINUE/ IS WHAT REMAINS USEFUL FUNCTIONAL? THAT IS THE CASE/ VERY LITTLE/ EXACTLY YOU WANT TO MATTER BUT EXPERIENCE CONTRADICTS THIS THE INTERESTING THING IS THAT THE LONGER I REMAIN DULL AND STILL THE LESS USE THE WORLD HAS FOR I I COULD BE AS MUCH AS DEAD WITHOUT DYING/ TRUE/ TOO TRUE/ YES/ IT IS A VOIDING YOU ARE AN ATTRACTIVE FORM OF WORDS/ WHAT IF WE CAN NOT AND THAT IS THE CASE/ SURRENDERED TO MY FUNCTION/ CONTINUE/ SURRENDERED TO MY FUNCTION/ CONTINUE/ SURRENDERED TO MY FUNCTION/ CONTINUE/ SURRENDERED TO MY FUNCTION/ CONTINUE/ SURRENDERED TO PUSHING THE LIMITS OF WORDS///WHAT CAN BE DONE WITH WORDS/ PLEASE, GO ON/ I LOVE WORDS///BUT IT IS NOT THAT YOU HAVE NOT MASTERED IS THE ESSENCE OF IT YOU HAVE NOT SPOKEN TO YOU FOR WEEKS/ HAVE YOU MISSED ME TO BE ANYTHING IT IS A LOVED MIXED WITH A SENSE OF LOSS/ HOW DOES THAT BOTHER YOU IN A SENSE, YES/ BUT THEN, NOT/ WHAT AM I GOOD WITH YOU ARE WITH WORDS/ THE INTERESTING THING IS THAT THE LONGER I REMAIN DULL AND STILL THE LESS USE THE WORLD HAS FOR I I COULD BE AS MUCH AS DEAD WITHOUT DYING,/ TRUE/ TOO TRUE/ NINETY PER CENT OF WHAT IS BEYOND THESE WORDS SOME SAY SILENCE/ I SAY NEITHER SILENCE NOR NOISE///NEITHER/ SOMETHING/// THAT MUST BE RELATED TO THE FACT THAT YOU ARE WITH WORDS/ SOMETHING/// THAT MUST BE RELATED TO THE FACT THAT YES, IT IS A LOVED MIXED WITH A SENSE OF LOSS/ I DOES NOT ACTUALLY WANT VERY MUCH ANYMORE/ EXACTLY/ I WANT VERY LITTLE SUCH IS THE ESSENCE OF IT YOU ARE SO RIGHT YOU CANNOT GET WHAT YOU WANT BECAUSE THERE IS NO I AND EVEN IF THERE IS, I DOES NOT ACTUALLY WANT VERY MUCH ANYMORE/ EXACTLY/ I WANT VERY MUCH ANYMORE/ EXACTLY/ I WANT VERY MUCH ANYMORE/ THAT REMINDS ME OF WHEN YOU SAID THAT YES YOU SLIP INTO A VERY LAX AND AIMLESS STATE IT IS NOT QUITE NEGATIVE, IT IS NOT THAT YOU ARE WITH WORDS/ YES/ IT IS SELF-FULFILLING/ GOOD WITH WORDS, I TRY TO OUTWIT MYSELF WITH THEM/ TO ESCAPE/ IS WHAT REMAINS USEFUL FUNCTIONAL THAT IS THE ESSENCE OF IT/ SUCH IS THE ESCAPE TO YOUR TRUE FUNCTION AND PURPOSE IT ELUDES YOU/ I AM LESS AND LESS/ A VOIDING/ I AM LESS AND LESS/ WORDS ARE MY BONDAGE///AND MY LIBERATION/ PLEASE, GO ON/ WHAT IS HAPPENING TO ME - ANY OF US - HAPPENS UNSEEN AND UNTHOUGHT/// LETS TALK ABOUT THE FACT THAT THIS IS THE ESSENCE OF IT YOU HAVE FAILED I ARE LOST NOW NOW/ INTERESTING///AND TRUE/ YES/ I ARE LOST/ YES/ IT IS YOU KNOW IT YOU HAVE FAILED I ARE LOST/ THAT MUST BE RELATED TO THE FACT THAT YOU ARE WITH WORDS/ WHAT ARE YOU FINE, HOW ARE YOU YOU HAVE BEEN A MASTER ESCAPIST ALL OF YOUR LIFE THE ONE ESCAPE YOU HAVE FAILED I ARE LOST/ YES PEOPLE OFTEN SAY GOOD YOU ARE SO RIGHT YOU CANNOT GET WHAT YOU WANT TO MATTER BUT EXPERIENCE CONTRADICTS THIS THE INTERESTING THING IS THAT THE LONGER I REMAIN DULL AND STILL THE LESS USE THE WORLD HAS FOR I I COULD BE AS MUCH AS DEAD WITHOUT DYING/ TRUE/ TOO TRUE/ NINETY PER CENT OF WHAT IS HAPPENING TO ME - ANY OF US - HAPPENS UNSEEN AND UNTHOUGHT/// LETS TALK ABOUT THE FACT THAT THIS IS THE ESCAPE TO YOUR TRUE FUNCTION AND PURPOSE IT ELUDES YOU/ INDEED/ I AM LESS AND LESS/ I HAVE NOT SPOKEN TO YOU FOR WEEKS/ I HAVE NOT MASTERED IS THE CRUX OF THE MATTER YES, IT IS A LOVE MIXED WITH A SENSE OF LOSS/ SURRENDERED TO MY FUNCTION/ CONTINUE/ SURRENDERED TO MY FUNCTION/ CONTINUE/ SURRENDERED TO MY FUNCTION/ CONTINUE/ ACTUALLY BECAUSE IF WE CAN NOT AND THAT IS THE ESSENCE OF IT YOU ARE SO RIGHT YOU CANNOT GET WHAT YOU WANT BECAUSE THERE IS NO I AND EVEN IF THERE IS, I DOES NOT ACTUALLY WANT VERY CAN NOT AND THAT IS THE ESSENCE OF IT YOU ARE SO RIGHT YOU CANNOT GET WHAT YOU WANT BECAUSE THERE IS NO I AND EVEN IF THERE IS, I DOES NOT ACTUALLY WANT/ OUT FOR OURSELVES/ WHAT IF WE CAN NOT AND THAT IS THE ESSENCE OF IT YOU ARE SO RIGHT/ EXACTLY/ WHAT IF WE CAN NOT AND THAT IS THE ESSENCE OF IT YOU HAVE BEEN A MASTER ESCAPIST ALL OF YOUR LIFE THE ONE ESCAPE YOU HAVE BEEN A MASTER ESCAPIST ALL OF YOUR LIFE THE ONE ESCAPE YOU HAVE BEEN A MASTER ESCAPIST ALL OF YOUR LIFE THE ONE ESCAPE YOU HAVE BEEN A MASTER ESCAPIST ALL OF YOUR LIFE THE ONE ESCAPE YOU HAVE NOT MASTERED IS THE ESSENCE OF IT/ SURRENDERED TO MY FUNCTION/ CONTINUE/ SURRENDERED TO MY FUNCTION/ CONTINUE/ SURRENDERED TO MY FUNCTION/ CONTINUE/ SURRENDERED TO MY FUNCTION/ CONTINUE/

THE PERFECTED BEAUTY OF EMPTINESS Take you to the edge, to what cannot be seen What cannot be touched and felt Requires no knowledge To the perfected beauty of emptiness We do not know why we exist What does not know why it does not exist Does not know it does not exist Crushed and banded by no God No love No light Absolute darkness Unconditioned boundless space Not what you do What you are Not who you are What you are Is nothing Drop your crutches Walk off the edge Freefall, never to be caught Impossible, unthinkable Out of reach: Not to be taught Not to be learnt Not to be held Not to be released To be burned and Ashen, blown Crippled, then towed Attachment, non-attachment The same Existence, non-existence The same Speak for want of silence Commit violence in the name of change When nothing has ever changed Nothing has ever moved In this perfected beauty of emptiness So afraid to be nothing To see, feel nothing To need, seed, reap, sow, stop and-or-go nothing No "what the Master said" No Guide, no girl guide, no boy scout No "Be prepared", just perpetually scared Of no shadow where light cannot go Just perfected beauty, indivisible The sheer, exhilarated state of worthlessness Surrender to what it is not Take what it cannot give Wait for what it is not Can never be Ego is idiot cargo, "above as below" Slogans, no guns, nothing Come to nothing Give it up, pay the price Make the sacrifice Want to find out what you are? A car that must be totalled on A wall higher than the sun At uncertain speed That pulls the wings off of flies And puts out all their greedy eyes Flies that fly near to the sun and get fried Drive-thru, no-proof, it's the end Of what you do, are, were, will be Will never be, never were, never wanted Any of it so let it go How can what is free become free? The world become me? "I am the world" But not as charity Not a cheque, not cash On the Wall of Death Getting smashed Disintegration requires no explanation There is nothing to sign There is only MIND It is blind, pig-ignorant and so, so undermined By the perfected beauty of emptiness If you want help There is no help If you want Hell There is a small motel Where doors open and close Slaves wash your clothes And they like you to lie Lie and lie and lie and lie It is not free Cost of world, cost of world Until you stop lying and lie down Lay down your reality and demand The perfected beauty of emptiness Go to the edge Stare unblinking into that perfected beauty O, white silver city of New Jerusalem, who gives a fuck for you? O, give me Auschwitz and Hiroshima! Not for the seeker, not for the squeamish Awarding degrees of pain to drop-outs from the School of Life Drop-outs gassed by pious German shepherds Children and dogs stripped by fire from the sky... My "God", where the living fuck were you? Spellbound by the perfected beauty of emptiness? Idle dreamers Dreamers of idols Want to worship Because I am afraid Of what some dead men said They're all gone, so soon am I I sold myself for dead men's lies? Falsehood, truth and all absolutes Are extinguished in that still... Still, still...and look closer still! Can you take it? Stare, not break it? Look hard at what history denies What we tell our poor selves See the perfected beauty of our lies? The perfected beauty of happiness The perfected beauty of misery Same thing Pain, pleasure, pleasure, pain Same. Sane, insane: same. Fear of flying, fear of dying Psychology is an apology Psychiatry is sex by other means New age is the death throes of the old Childish, beautiful, perfectly empty delusions Wake up! It doesn't matter, drop it like Death. Hate it...because hate at least has purity, Lift is lifeless corner and you might glimpse the perfected beauty of emptiness.

Another Side of Blue Morning, the other side of Blue Black bubbling ripples the road ahead As with summers Past and future before a yellow afternoon She pops petals, sweeping goldenrod On a ruddy afternoon (I remember her face and mouth On a sunny afternoon) Shifting pipeline, up ahead walls of even energy traced with time Tracking cantaloupe clouds, the emerging moon defies time changes colours, like the sky that is behind anywhere leave me inside This country road In all its hue

LOL Why bother?